"I Swear On Chanel"

First Day. Premier Jour. 
What better way to begin but in attempts to break addiction. My addiction?
Go-Gurt. 


I've always been a yogurt girl. Breakfast or midnight snack, there's always a plentiful supply in the fridge. I'm a loyalist to what's been good to me. Yoplait Raspberry and Lemon, sometimes a Custard-style Strawberry & Banana. I have a hard time switching it up. 


I can't help myself. Once I become dependent on something that's good and never failing, I stay hooked. Like a bad habit, I can't seem to let myself explore the possibility of more. I drink my coffee from my Sunflower printed, blue cup. I eat my cereal from my tiffany blue breakfast bowl. I can't break away from it.


And after three strawberry Go-Gurts and one vanilla latte I got a scare.  


Do I dig my heels in to all aspects of life? Am I set on everything in its place, already?


At 20, I have the next ten plus years of my life all pictured. Two more years of undergraduate, four years of Medical, one year of intern, five years residency and three years of fellowship. 


Sure there will be children, a husband, vacations (Well, that might be pushing it.) But I haven't even taken a second to think maybe I've planned it all wrong. Or, is there every a concrete plan at 20?


I swear on Chanel, which is the highest and most honest promise I can make, I am more confused then the dementia patients at the Hawthorn Retirement Clinic a few blocks away. I'm not sure why you, the people of the world wide web, would want to hear a coming of age girl complain about all things, well, coming of age. 


I'm sure it's all things that can be learned in time, or well, maybe not. I'm about as sure of that as I am of everything else. But what is an inarguable fact is that i'll keep eating my Go-Gurts, drinking my Tully's and sticking to what I do best. 


This, I swear on Chanel.